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I wrote this on March 5, 2006 ... my 24th birthday and am re-posting it to reaffirm my year 24 affirmations and because I promised Karen I would.

Today marks my 24th year of existence on this earth. I brought it in on my couch, in my living room, sippin' a Hennessey and red bull. I was searching for the motivation to make my way to my own party in the VIP section at Club Christopher's. YAY! (Can you feel the sarcasm dripping from every excited utterance issued by my keyboard?)

Well, I made it out there. What a complete waste of time! I mean, I ended up watching the replay of the Duke-UNC game on ESPN and I spent most of the time cursing Roy Williams for being such a traitor. How does the once "Greatest Coach Never to Win a Championship" leave Kansas only to win the very next year at North Carolina? UGGGGHHH! (That's my disgust emanating.)

Anyhow, now I'm sitting in front of my computer, approximately 24 years and two hours after my emergence into this world. That was the first time I was early for anything ... and quite possibly the last. I emerged from my mother's womb, 10 days before I was expected, raring and ready to take on the world. Now, sitting back and reflecting on the past, I think I've conquered everything I set out to do, with one exception ... unconditional love.

(27 November 2008) A once private blog ... but I'll share because I'm thankful on this day of Thanksgiving:

(20 November 2008) On Tuesday, November 18, 2008, I had the amazing opportunity to have dinner with a friend of mine from high school, Gina (on my left [right if you're looking at the picture]), and we talked about a lot of things, most of which I won't talk about here but during dinner, she says to me, "You're an amazing writer."

That, of course, is an ultimate compliment for me, especially coming from her because she, too, is an amazing writer -- a lot of what she writes makes me jealous because she is absolutely phenomenal in her writing ability.

Anyhow, that being said, I was thinking to myself that I haven't written anything of substance in a very long time and I realized that I am missing that from my life so here I am writing again.

Now, I don't know how often or regularly I'll be writing, but I definitely need it.  Writing cleanses my soul and makes me feel whole. 

(06 June 2007) -- I never sit down at the keyboard with the intention of writing words that will hurt anyone however, if I decide to actually post this instead of just tucking it away somewhere, I know that it potentially hurtful to several people that read it and I just want to say now, I apologize however, I'm going to qualify my apology with a "but" so here it is ...

I apologize to any person or persons to whom this is hurtful or offensive or whatever other negative emotions and/or reactions that this piece may evoke BUT, I have been feeling really introspective lately and I must get this out of my head and into words that I can see before it marinates in my head too long and causes me to go insane.

What I mean to say is that this is not about being negative. It's about me being honest with myself --