Maybe I Do Hate You

For so long
I heard it ...

Kornika,
You are worthless
You are not good enough
You will never be anything
You are nobody

Over and over
And over
And over

And still it echoes
It resonates
In my very core

And the more success
I put between
Me
&
You
&
Failure

The more I hear it:

Kornika,
You are worthless
You are not good enough
You will never be anything
You are nobody

Yet I cannot hate you
For you gave me life
You nourished me
And it wasn't even your job

But by that same token ...

You broke me
D
O
W
N
Tore me apart
Ripped me open
Disemboweled me

You
Took
From
Me
The
One
Thing
I
Ever
Wanted

Yet,
I still can't hate you

I don't know how to hate
And I hate that

Because still I hear it:

Kornika,
You are worthless
You are not good enough
You will never be anything
You are nobody

In my head

I hear it

It even carries your resonance

Kornika,
You are worthless
You are not good enough
You will never be anything
You are nobody

I separate myself from you
In distance
Across miles
And yet I still hear you

Kornika,
You are worthless
You are not good enough
You will never be anything
You are nobody

You know what?

Maybe I do hate you

Maybe