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I wrote this on March 5, 2006 ... my 24th birthday and am re-posting it to reaffirm my year 24 affirmations and because I promised Karen I would.

Today marks my 24th year of existence on this earth. I brought it in on my couch, in my living room, sippin' a Hennessey and red bull. I was searching for the motivation to make my way to my own party in the VIP section at Club Christopher's. YAY! (Can you feel the sarcasm dripping from every excited utterance issued by my keyboard?)

Well, I made it out there. What a complete waste of time! I mean, I ended up watching the replay of the Duke-UNC game on ESPN and I spent most of the time cursing Roy Williams for being such a traitor. How does the once "Greatest Coach Never to Win a Championship" leave Kansas only to win the very next year at North Carolina? UGGGGHHH! (That's my disgust emanating.)

Anyhow, now I'm sitting in front of my computer, approximately 24 years and two hours after my emergence into this world. That was the first time I was early for anything ... and quite possibly the last. I emerged from my mother's womb, 10 days before I was expected, raring and ready to take on the world. Now, sitting back and reflecting on the past, I think I've conquered everything I set out to do, with one exception ... unconditional love.

Well, actually I have one lesion and some hyper-intense foci and thus begins this particular blog ...

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On March 5, 2007, my 25th birthday, I presented to the emergency room with tingling throughout the entire right side of my body. It wasn't numb, just tingly. It felt like it does when your leg falls asleep and then it "wakes up," only for me, it was the entire right side of my body. It was really weird.

After a few tests (CTs, EKGs, and X-rays), I was sent home with the diagnosis of "anxiety" even though I told them that I was not feeling anxious or stressed. They told me to go home and rest.

So I did.

However, every six months or so I would go back to the doctor with the same complaints. The site of the tingling sensation

As many of you know, I am an avid animal lover, especially a dog lover and to be more specific, a pit bull lover. And right now, according to the NAIA Trust:

The Florida State House may consider lifting the ban on local breed specific laws. State Representative Perry E. Thurston, Jr. has introduced HB 189, following an interim report commissioned by the Senate Community Affairs Committee which recommended that local governments be granted the right under their home rule authority to enact breed specific regulations such as registering, muzzling, neutering, or destroying the dog.

Under the existing Florida Statute Chapter 767.14, local governments are prohibited from declaring a dog as dangerous based solely on its breed. While the committee recommendation does not go so far as to enable breed bans, it would allow restrictions and requirements based on breed.

(04 June 2007) -- Okay so I haven't pissed anyone off in my blog in a minute.  Or as SteamGeek (who is now going by the moniker of "The All Seeing Tree") would say, I haven't rabble roused in a hot minute so here I am.

I was searching for a topic to blog about because that's what I do in the early AM hours of the day and that's when I found it thanks to Invictus.

I was going through my all of my blog subscriptions and leaving comments when I had one and checking on my "space" friends that I hadn't checked on in a minute when I came across a picture that was in Invictus' profile.  The picture was that of a book (pictured left) simply entitled, Nigger.

Well, you know me ... that got the gears in my head spinning and voila!  Here's a blog.

Now,

(02 December 2008) On February 1, 2001, after sixteen hours of drug-free, pain-laden labor, I gave birth to a perfect 10 pound, six ounce little boy whom I named Elijah Kristopher Tionne Charles Neak Davis.

Seventeen days later, I placed him in another mother's arms.

I am a birth-mother.

I have been judged.

And I have misled.

But mostly, I have cried.

I am crying now even as I write this.

You see, I was in a crisis pregnancy.

(27 November 2008) A once private blog ... but I'll share because I'm thankful on this day of Thanksgiving:

(20 November 2008) On Tuesday, November 18, 2008, I had the amazing opportunity to have dinner with a friend of mine from high school, Gina (on my left [right if you're looking at the picture]), and we talked about a lot of things, most of which I won't talk about here but during dinner, she says to me, "You're an amazing writer."

That, of course, is an ultimate compliment for me, especially coming from her because she, too, is an amazing writer -- a lot of what she writes makes me jealous because she is absolutely phenomenal in her writing ability.

Anyhow, that being said, I was thinking to myself that I haven't written anything of substance in a very long time and I realized that I am missing that from my life so here I am writing again.

Now, I don't know how often or regularly I'll be writing, but I definitely need it.  Writing cleanses my soul and makes me feel whole. 

(06 June 2007) -- I never sit down at the keyboard with the intention of writing words that will hurt anyone however, if I decide to actually post this instead of just tucking it away somewhere, I know that it potentially hurtful to several people that read it and I just want to say now, I apologize however, I'm going to qualify my apology with a "but" so here it is ...

I apologize to any person or persons to whom this is hurtful or offensive or whatever other negative emotions and/or reactions that this piece may evoke BUT, I have been feeling really introspective lately and I must get this out of my head and into words that I can see before it marinates in my head too long and causes me to go insane.

What I mean to say is that this is not about being negative. It's about me being honest with myself --

(31 May 2007) -- This is my third tag blog.  The first time I got tagged has been deleted from my own blog but can still be read in ?uestlove's Blog Number 43 from when he respon

(30 May 2007) -- In my "You Are Not Ready" blog, I mentioned that I would be travelling by Greyhound bus to and from Atlanta.  It was my first time ever travelling this way but with gas prices so high ($3.20 the day I left) and a last minute plane ticket being unreasonable ($300 plus), I figured that I would just take the bus -- it would be an adventure.

Boy, was it!

(01 May 2007) -- This is a very serious

(25 April 2007) -- If you have not read the intro and the previous two parts to this "Making it in 'The Industry'" series, please click the appropriate link(s) below:

(20 April 2007) -- If you haven't read the previous parts please click below to read:

The Intro [ click to read ]

(22 April 2007) -- ORIGINALLY POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2006

So today I read this on XXLmag.com ...

(15 April 2007) -- If you haven't read "The Intro" then you need to click here to do so.

(25 March 2007) -- Shakespeare would say, "a rose by any other name would smell as sweet" while other people would say that a name can definitely define you.

I don't know which is more correct to believe though I do know that having a name like Kornika has definitely given me some advantages and disadvantages both in life.