An ordinary woman on an extraordinary journey to get closer to God through getting to know Jesus.

Sex, Marriage, and Fairytales

(March 11, 2013)

So on Facebook someone asks me if I've seen a video that was posted and, if so, what I thought of it. Well, 650 words later, they knew.

It was in a private group I posted my opinion so I thought I'd share it for the whole world here. My thoughts and the video are mutually exclusive of each other but the spoken word video is what inspired my fingers to start typing so watch and read ...


(If video does not start click here to view it.)

I feel like marriage was not necessarily meant to make us happy, but to bring us closer to Him. I know that sucks as a theory but the state of marriage is one that requires more virtue and constancy than anything else in life. In our current culture, we are bombarded by images of romance as if romance alone can sustain relationships. But the idea that marriage can survive on romance alone,

Catharsis (Part 1)

(February 6, 2013)

I've been praying daily to find my spiritual gift. Because everyone has one.

Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; the one who exhorts, in his exhortation; the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads, with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness. (Romans 12:6-8, ESV)

Actually, let me take that back. I think I have always known that my gift is my ability to convey thought and emotion through writing. What I have been praying for is the way to apply my gift into a sustainable mission. That's how this website came to be destroyed and rebuilt. But, as those who have been around for awhile know, this site has been destroyed and rebuilt quite a few times in several different incarnations.

A Few Seconds of Thanks

(November 5, 2012)

God gave us the gift of 86,400 seconds each day. I just want to take a few to just give thanks. I have so much to be thankful for. I am blessed beyond measure.

Stop Trying to Hug Porcupines

(November 02, 2012)

I posted the picture seen here to the right earlier today because I was inspired by one of my friends' status on Facebook. He basically stated that he came to a life changing epiphany that it was impossible to live a righteous life without God.

Well ...

untitled (when we first met)

when we first met,
     i was determined not to fall ...
        look at me now:
          i've lost control--
                of feelings

My Body Betrays Me

My body betrays me
In it lies the remembrances
Of a child it once borne
And then bore

But lost forever
Not to death
But to life
Without me

Apart from me
In a better place
Just not with me

They got the best of me
Wrong situations
Inappropriate circumstances
But I don't believe in my right

So I chose the hardest thing
And now I live with it daily

Journal of Goodbye

I will never forget how I feel at this moment
I'm not quite sure that I'm still alive
I am supposed to be holding you forever
… Protecting you
Yet, I know in so many ways
I am protecting you…
From a life where you cannot be offered the best
And you my child deserve the very best.

I feel empty
Empty womb
Empty heart
Empty arms.

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